Today was my court date with my husband of 19 years. Although we have been living apart for over 2 years, it was strange to walk into the court room and realize that this is really going to be official. This was all my decision and my choice, this is what I wanted, I have been happier without him in my life for over 2 years now, but it was still kind of sad. We have two beautiful children together.....and 19 years of marriage just ended. I truely did love him with all of my heart for many many years. But when someone chips away at your heart time and time and time again, there comes a point when you just shout (STOP!) I have had enough.
I woke up......I just woke up one day and said....that's it....I'm done.....I have nothing left to give, and my heart is now 100% broken. There was no turning back after that. Living apart for over two years......I knew eventually we would both move on. Although I don't think that he has moved on by conversations that we have had, I moved on along time ago. It feels good. It does feel good to be divorced officially and I can say it out loud (I'M DIVORCED) No more....my husband.....or my husband (soon to be x)......now I can officially say my X HUSBAND!
There is a part of me that wants to celebrate....there is a part of me that wants to go out and get stupid drunk and have a good time.....
But the OLDER WISER part of me says.......man am I tired today, I could go home and take a nap. LOL
Ok well I'm off to go make myself some coffee.....work is going very very slow today...feels like it's never going to end.
Hope everyone has a great weekend!